Thursday, November 13, 2008

The land of in-between

I have grown to hate my wardrobe of maternity clothes. I have been pregnant a great majority of the last 4 years, and spent much of the time between pregnancies wearing maternity clothes... which is of course where I am right now. So, today when a very sweet neighbor of ours commented on my cute shirt and then asked, "Now, when are you due again?", I couldn't help but be a little... bummed. This morning, I gave up on the way-too-big maternity jeans that were continually falling down and squeezed into an older pair of jeans- even if they gave me a little muffin top, my post-pregnancy 3-4 month pregnant looking belly fit nicely over the top of them... at least they would zip, right? Any maternity shirt I wear, only makes me look bigger and apparently still "pregnant", and any pre-pregnancy shirt I own is just too darn small/short/tight to justify wearing out in public. The land of in-between...

I'm just now feeling well enough to even think about taking a walk, let alone actually getting out and sweat a little. I know it's going to take some time to get back to my "fighting weight" and I realize nobody expects me to bounce back within 2 weeks of giving birth. So, it leaves me wondering- which is the lesser of two evils... wearing the maternity clothes and still looking pregnant/just fat or squeezing into smaller, non-maternity clothes. I miss my old wardrobe- which is probably completely out of style by now anyways! :)

*On a completely different note, we recently found out that several houses in our neighborhood have been broken into in the last week and cars have been stolen right from people's driveways. I'm already a total chicken when it comes to noises in the house at night and I'm scared of the dark, but the idea of having our house broken into just freaks me out. We have the house completely locked up (garage doors and all), half the lights will be left on all night, we have moved all our major "valuables" (cameras, computers, wallets, etc.) to our bedroom, and also moved all our financial and personal documents from our file cabinet to our bedroom as well. I seriously considered having all three kids sleep in our room tonight too, but Riley and Tyson are snug in there own beds. The only information we've gotten has been from our neighbor, but I'm considering placing a call to Gresham Police tomorrow to find out more details. I will be saying serious prayers of protection over our house and my wonderful family tonight as we try and get a good nights sleep.

3 comments:

Babyfro said...

Brooke, I say wear whatever you are comfortable in. Don't squeeze into clothes that are going to remind you all day the you're squeezing. You just had a baby!! Remember you're beautiful and this short period of in-between will pass. Maybe this time you'll get to wear your "normal" sized clothes for a good long duration of time.

As to the break-in's, I feel you. I had a friend let me know there had been quite a few car break-ins in my area the past week. We just made room the week before in the garage so that both cars fit in there. Made me feel a little better. When Adam was traveling every week we installed an alarm system and while I sleep a little better at night, I know it's not foolproof either. I'll keep your family and their safety in my thoughts the next couple of weeks. Sending no burglar vibes your way!!

Lisa Joy said...

Brooke, I feel your pain! I've spent many months in in-between land! I feel the same way for the first couple months of every pregnancy, too--when nobody can really tell you're pregnant, so you just feel fat. Wear what feels comfortable, even if that's maternity jeans for awhile. Hey, they do call it the "4th trimester" for a reason! We aren't celebrities that look like we never had a baby just 2 weeks after birth--that's just not right! Heck, go out and buy yourself a couple new shirts that make you feel normal again--you deserve it!! :-)

Lisa said...

Honey, you're doing great to be in the inbetweens at 2 weeks! I'm in them now and today makes 6 weeks! And I'm all for comfort at home, but for self-esteem in the world. I'm with Lisa Joy. Go spend a few dollars on some inbetween real clothes. You'll feel beautiful. Throw in a new piece of fun jewelry, too! Even just one complete outfit will do the trick. I did this after Natalie and it made a world of difference in how I felt about myself. And just remember to look at your beautiful family and think to yourself "P*ss the world and what they think!" (what!? did i say that!?) =D